By: Dung – Founder of Christcolor
A Life Filled with Success but Haunted by Emptiness
Growing up in Vietnam, I was surrounded by a culture where Christianity was not common. Words like “prayer,” “grace,” and “gospel” felt foreign—things that didn’t seem relevant to my everyday life. Instead, my world was shaped by relentless pressure to succeed, to meet the high expectations of my family and society. I chased achievement with all my might, believing that this would bring me happiness and fulfillment.
But deep inside, I was battling a different reality. Despite outward appearances, I felt a profound loneliness, anxiety, and an unshakable emptiness. Success felt hollow. I wondered constantly, “Is this all life has to offer? Is this all there is?” The silence of my heart grew louder with each passing day, but I had no idea how to fill the void. My soul was restless, yearning for something I couldn’t name or understand.
The Struggle of a Soul Searching for Meaning
For years, I tried to numb the emptiness with busyness, distractions, and the pursuit of approval. But no matter how hard I tried, the ache remained. It was like carrying a heavy burden no one else could see. I envied people who seemed peaceful, joyful, and full of hope—qualities I desperately wanted but couldn’t find within myself.
Faith was not a part of my life then. It felt distant, irrelevant, or even uncomfortable. I didn’t understand what it meant to believe, or why anyone would put their trust in God. To me, faith was for the naive or the desperate, not someone like me who valued logic and independence. I pushed away the idea, even as a tiny, quiet voice inside me longed for something more.
A Flicker of Hope in the Darkness
Looking back, I realize that even in my darkest moments, God was quietly preparing my heart for the journey ahead. Sometimes hope comes not as a blazing light, but as a small flicker—a whisper in the silence that says, “There is more for you.”
I didn’t know it then, but my life was about to change. The walls I had built around my heart were beginning to crack, making way for a new story—a story of grace, love, and transformation that I had never imagined possible.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” — Matthew 11:28
